Four days later and I'm still not seeing quite as well as I'd like, especially up close. I know everyone heals differently and while some people see perfectly in the days after the surgery other's  can take weeks before their vision stablizes. You always want to be in that first group though. So, poop

I still hope every morning I'll wake up and my right eye will have got with the program. It's the one that's being the most contrary.  My left eye I would say is on par with what I was hoping for. I see well enough with it both up close and at a distance. It's still a little less crisp than I used to see with my glasses on, but its close enough that if it never improved, I'd still say it was a success.

On the right side, its still lingering at 20/40 (I printed out an eye chart and check it myself-- no, I'm not anal) and there's just really no point where things are in focus. If I take a large font text, its not really clear at my normal reading range, and as I back away it never comes into focus. This leads me to believe that the problem maybe with some overall blurring which could be caused by sweling or  (more scarily-- damn the internet for letting me look this crap up) lasik caused astigmatism where the procedure has altered the shape of the cornea in such a way as to cause an astigmatism where there wasn't one before. But that's pretty rare while the trauma induced blurriness isn't really.

Anyhow, what I need to do is stay off my laptop and limit my reading so I quit straining my eyes. That should help with the healing the process, but its sooooo hard. First, I'm a little behind in my 50 Books in a year reading challenge at hobgoblin.net. I've only read 38 (39-41 are currently in various stages of completion), so I really need to finish those three, and read at least 4 more in November and 5 in December.

Not an easy task when you consider the fact that next month is also Nanowrimo, which I intend to do this year. So lots of writing, and that's number two on my list of reasons why I am having trouble staying away from the computer. If I'm going to finish Nano, then I'm looking at writing every day on my laptop for anywhere from 2-4 hours judging from previous years. That makes my eyes ache just thinking about it. Plus, as I've discovered from previous years, I write quicker with an outline, so I'm trying to do that right now too.

Then there's the other thing that has me online too much of late-- a rather big one too. I even hesitate to bring it up because its not only really big, but also kind of iffy too, but here it goes. My husband may get a job offer from a place in L.A.

We both want to move to California but had always assumed we'd do it via San Diego not L.A. So, this change has us scrambling to make an informed decision.  Where would we live, what could we afford, would we be happy still living rather far from the family in San Diego which made that move so much more attractive with the built in support system.

So, he had a phone interview that went well, and is scheduled for another quite soon, and we had decide if it was worth it to continue with the process. Despite that fact that I was born and bred in L.A.-- it was the South East, and we're looking at the North West for this move an area I'm just not familiar with. We had to really do some research on what we could expect to afford price-wise in the various neighborhoods in two different counties. We had to compare commute times and weigh them against our desire to own a home. Maybe to save commute time we'd be willing to go with a townhome or condo, maybe even an apartment while we saved up to afford a detached house that wasn't so far away the commute would make us miserable.

We had to research school districts too. What difference would it make if we could afford to live in a decent, affordable area close to the job, if the schools were so bad we wouldn't want to send our son to them. And they're places like that-- LA unified hasn't exactly improved since I made my way through that system, and I wouldn't say I had a great educational experience back in the day either.

Still, the desire to return to California is strong. It took me years to feel at home here in Maryland, and it would be hard to leave everything we have here behind. Our friends, our house our community-- both the one where we live and the bellydance community for me, and the gaming community for my husband. We have connections here.

What we don't have is mild winters (I'm sorry, I hate cold weather. I don't care what anyone says about the winters in Maryland not being that bad, and how great it is to have seasons. I hate it. If I never see another day under 40 degrees for the rest of my life, I will be perfectly happy.) What we have instead is stupid humid summers that I also can't deal with. This girl was made for the desert. I can deal with the extremes of heat as long as it isn't accompanied by extreme humidity.

And we don't have family here anymore. I grew up with a close extended family. I spent time with my cousins, grandparents, aunts and uncles. Holidays were huge get togethers and I'm sad that these days its just the three of us for Christmas unless there's some major travel involved.

So yeah, last few days have been featuring some heavy thinking and quite a bit of research on line while we try to decide if we can make the move to Cali via this particular job or if we shouldn't bide our time and hope that someday we'll find something in San Diego.

And now I've spent way to long on the laptop writing this. Damn it.  :)